Canadian winter: one more month for it to end. I didn’t know it would be so crushing, the lack of sun, dusk at 3 or 4pm, snow and eternal rain. After moving around the world at full speed over the past few years, I was underprepared to step on the brake in this frozen landscape. My mind tripped over itself, and I had to learn to slow down.
After cursing the city’s weather and lack of social warmth, being mad at everything and everyone, I stopped, and my own silence felt heavy. I wished for a magic reset button to go back to normal full speed the next morning. Then I realized the key part of that wish was not “magic reset button” but why the hell do I need to be “full speed” to feel normal. (I would blame it on my Buenos Aires DNA, if I hadn’t stopped blaming. Damn)
Sometimes we’re up, some we’re down and both should be ok. Avoiding or killing bad feelings instantly at any cost is unnecessary. Investigating the cause instead, can be a more interesting job.
I’ve been silently studying and exercising these past months. This opened up new points of view on my artwork, which I’m actually gratefull for. It’s still work in progress, slowly but steady. I’ll show you some of this in my next mail, I just wanted to make this introduction for you to understand where it comes from. Also pat you on the back if you’re feeling down, with a suggestion to not beat yourself up, and see what’s itching inside.
*This article first appeared in my newsletter: 02/25/2020 – Animalito’s Stories: Reset Button
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